Tuesday, December 18, 2007

A bad way to start the day

Any day that starts off with a mammogram has got to be bad. There is just no getting around it. From the time the technician called me into the little room with the breast crusher I was angry, and I think she was too. She barely said anything to me except stand straight, lower your shoulder, look toward me, look away from me. Take your right arm out of the gown. Take your left arm out of the gown. And when I complained that it hurt she asked if it felt like it was pulling from above. I said, no, it was pulling from below. So much so, that the underside of my right breast was red and sore when I was finished. Why is that that once she got me all in place and locked in she had turn the crank one extra turn before she took the x-ray? Was she afraid that I would somehow get out of her vice? No chance. I was already in there so tight I couldn’t move.
And, what’s the deal with her attitude. I keep hoping every year that someone else a little more pleasant will be there. But no. She’s always there. What did I ever do to hurt her? She’s the one doing the hurting. Maybe that’s it. She doesn’t like her job. And if that’s the truth I wouldn’t blame her. Can you imagine squeezing women’s breasts into that torture machine all day long?
The other thing she asks me every year is if I’m on hormones. And I always get the feeling that she disapproves that I am. If I continue to have normal breast exams why does it concern her? I would think that’s an issue between me and my gynecologist and my internist. I’m on a low dosage and have started to take them less days a week, but I’m not about to stop cold turkey. Some of my friends did when the Women’s Health Initiative came out with the news that HRT caused heart disease in women. But, my gynecologist was wary of the results and so was I. It only tested women over 65 who had never taken hormones before, not us younger women who started hormones with the onset of menopause, so we decided that the results weren’t pertinent to me. As is turns out, we were right.

2 comments:

Rain said...

I also take HRT and began when I had a hysterectomy at 54. I switched to biodentical two years ago and do not notice any difference in their effectiveness. At 64, I know I can't do this forever but I believe they are good for skin and hair and if they are with that, why not organs. I don't think women who have a high hormone dose naturally at my age would be a good comparison for those taking bioidentical which don't spike. I figured there was some risk but I also felt that they improved quality of life and if it shorted it some, I'll accept that

madeline40 said...

Rain,
I totally agree with you.
HRT was once believed to improve quality of life and to stave off the effects of aging, but the women's health initiative didn't condone that view. I believe hormones have worked positively for me and my doctor agrees, so I don't see any reason to stop -- yet. My aunt -- my role model -- took them up until she turned 90, and she is still a most beautiful woman -- with no signs of osteoporosis. So, HRT didn't seem to shorten her life.
I, like you, am willing to take the risk.
I would like to know more about bioidentical -- I've never heard of that.